READY?

Are You Ready for Love?

Author Unknown

(Edited)

A good relationship isn't a game you play or an ego trip you take. It is about love
and two people. Loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know and
it can hurt more than we can believe too. When it does not really hurt when that
person did something disappointing to you, but really hurts when you see that
person in pain and sadness, then you know you truly love that person.

Loving someone means you should be ready to experience heartache and happiness at
the same time. That's the reward and that's the risk. Unless we are willing to
experience it, we will never really know what it's like to love and be loved.

Sharing love is probably the most valuable and meaningful experience a person
can ever have. And there's a difference between being in love with someone and
loving someone. It's the difference between a love that's fickle, wild and
short-lived and one that's tender and passionate, nurturing and lasts a long time.
The first is easy. The second, the one that really matters to all of us, takes
work -- because it's about keeping a relationship.

Loving someone takes efforts. We have to be able to communicate with each other.
Nobody can read anyone else's mind. We always presume that our partner knows what
we think and feel. Maybe in time we might be able to predict or sense each other's
thoughts but it's never perfect and takes time to develop.

Getting the chance to love and be loved by someone is blessed. Respect
him/her for who he/she is, and not what you want him/her to be. Everyone
is pretty and special in his/her own special way. No one is perfect. It is
true love which closes the gap of imperfectness to form a smooth surface
of acceptance for each other. True love sees and accepts a person for who
he/she is. It is also true love which makes a person change for the better.

The power of true love to a person is undeniable.

A relationship needs commitments too. What is love without commitments
from each other anyway? It's like principles and values. Everyone has
them but they only mean as much as we are willing to stand for them.

The same goes for our commitments to relationships, and the person we love.

"Love is like an antique vase. It's hard to find, hard to get, but easy to break."

Every day everywhere, people fall in love...but just how many of these
relationships are self-sacrificing love, and not just relationships
which are formed only for the intense feeling of falling in love?
I know hundreds of friends who say the magical words "I love you"...
but more often than not, the truth is just -- I am IN love with you.
There is a difference between being in love with someone and loving
someone. If a person says he/she is in love with you, he/she means
that he/she likes you for who you are now and he/she fell in love
with you because of the present you.

This kind of love is temporary and lasts only as long as the fairytale lasts.
When fairy godmother comes in at midnight to whirl us back to reality, we see
the heartache of such a relationship...where both were only IN love with each other.

But if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she
loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in
the past and who you might be in the future. When he/she says he/she
loves you and really means it, you have to ask yourself if you love
him/her too or if you're in love with the idea of being in love.

Let us be guided by the Lord (THE LOVE HIMSELF) in this.

A love so sweet

"You keep tack of all my sorrows.
You have collected all my tears in your bottle.
You have recorded each one in Your book."
Psalm 56:8

Lord, You are soooo sweet... I know that you know everything that I'm been through and will be going through, but it amazed me when I learned that You really keep a track of them... I may have a journal of myself, tracking almost everything about me but i think I can't do it for someone else even how much I love that person, because only You can... No one else can love us like You do. You love and care so much....

I Will Listen

BIG

There is a BIG difference between a DREAMER and someone with BIG DREAMS.
BIG DREAMS are for people who get up and follow them.
While the DREAMER keeps sleeping...

the problem?

Few days ago, I heard my former workmate sharing her problem to our senior nurse. I learned that she is having a hard time moving on from her break up with his long distance boyfriend. she broke up with him just a month ago. This lady used to be jolly and blooming, but now she's quite different. her looks cannot deny that she was depressed.

Recently, I also learned that one of our classmates in high school has been struggling because of a broken seven-year relationship with her boyfriend. I was saddened all the more when I learned that some friends of mine in the family of Christ are having a hard time because of the thing they call "love".

It's not yet february, we're still on our way to christmas season yet "love" seems to be the issue in the air. I think this proves that love is not just for valentines day its for everyday. Love seemed to be the problem... was it? If so, is it still love?

I thought I knew what love is. I even thought that I loved so well. And it was so humiliating to know that I knew nothing about it. Yes, it was humiliating, nevertheless I will never regret that I was humiliated rather than never realizing the truth. It was when I personally met the LOVE HIMSELF that I truly understood and experienced it.

Love is such a wonderful thing. 1 Corinthians 13 says that love is patient and kind. It is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable and it keeps no record of being wronged. As described, love cannot cause indifference, heartaches and tears but rather peace, hope and joy.

I believe anyone among us will really have a hard time in this thing called love if we haven't met LOVE HIMSELF and if we try to do things our way rather than allowing LOVE HIMSELF to do HIS way through us.

All I can say is....

i have decided

I have decided to follow Jesus
No turning back
The cross before me
The world behind me
No turning back
Though no one joins me
Still I will follow

"i'm getting married"

Thank you Lord for the success of YR "i'm getting married".

Thank you for covenant that I have with you. Help me to stay within the bounds of it.
Thank You for the joy that you have given me. It is not your will for me to be happy but rather to be joyful.
Thank You for Your precious blood that is so powerful in my life.
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One thing I learned ganiha, dili diay dali mag magpakasal...haha... pero when your there na lingaw pud... I love te merlyn kay always jud niya ko ginaremind and ginahatagan ug tips about wedding...haha. I learned a lot from her, in fact daghan nag change sa akong perceptions about wedding and marriage because of her...though I'm not getting married yet. hehe...

@terej, ang boquet!!! hehe. lov u.

Yet I will

conquest

This morning when I was having my devotional time, the Lord Himself told me that I need to have a mindset of conquest. It has to be so because it is His will for me to conquer. He designed me to be a conqueror. I need to conquer myself, my disciples and the multitudes around me. God's will for us is so great but they become limited because of our unbelief and average thinking.

Thank You Lord for giving me a spirit and mindset of a conquest.

a different season

Few days ago, I was challenged to do something in the last 2 months of this year... I knew it will not be easy but i was sure it will be rewarding... yesterday was the first day, and it was a wonderful beginning. I had a great time with the Lord and he welcomed me in a new and different season of my life.

I used to be happy being single but never as happy as I am right now. Nothing changed with my status but with my relationship with the Lord.... a big YES... God is teaching me right now how to be more intimate with Him. He is making me excited to know Him more... I learned that there is more, I just have to avail it. I'm enjoying this season because I'm having more time with Him and I love dating with Him.

*Thank You Lord! You are the best.

soul-winner

"If we would search for methods for winning souls with the same energy that we try to make money, I believe we would be kept from falling into trivial matters taht may distract us".- Ptr. Cesar Castillanos

Requirements for a soul-winner:

1. Must be faithful with little.
2. Must be courageous
3. Must hold on to the power of faith.
4. Has a Rhema word.

young prof

Time runs so fast... I've been a young prof for 3 years and 7 months now to be exact...(hehe). Gone were the days of soaking myself with so many nursing books. To be a young prof is what i've been looking forward when I was still in my college years. I was so excited to graduate, to work and to earn money. But honestly, I got a hard time during the first 2 years of being in this point of my life. I used to have money anytime from my parents and other loved ones, but it was different when I started working. Being a young prof is fun yet it is not easy as it seems. I'm just so blessed that it is in this stage that I received and accepted the calling of the Lord in my life. As a young prof, life for me became meaningful and fruitful because the Lord has been my master and my bestfriend. Despite of all the pressures and stress, I'm enjoying this stage because I understood that I'm not a young prof working to have a living. i exist not because of my profession, but I have this profession for the completion of God's purpose in my life and that is to make disciples.

compassion

I'm learning how to be compassionate to my workmates... After my duty, I was able to spend time with one of my colleagues. Her mother is a cancer patient and is now having lung metastasis. I was able to pray for her and her mother. I learned that I should make my workmates feel and know that I'm willing to listen, help and pray for them.

*****

It was a great day yet I was stressed out with someone and something... huhu...
Thank God, he enabled me to handle it in His way rather than doing it my way...
Soar high eagurl!

i decide!!!

Life is not an accident, it is a result of every decision that we make. Making a decision is as important as to what our decision is. If we think that we are losers, we really are because decided to be that way. On the other hand, if we believe that we can make it, surely we can...

Our relationship and intimacy with the Lord is a decision as well. It should never be according to our feelings or to our moods. Serving and loving the Lord must be our passion at all times even in the toughest and driest point of our life. Most of the times, we are so excited to pray, praise Him and share if we are happy and full of strength... but what if we are not? Could we ignore Him, and just dump Him for a moment while we are not okay and just get Him back if we are better? Sometimes, we miss out the truth that in good times and in bad times He remains to be our God who is worthy to be honored and praised. In the first, it is never about us, it is all about Him.

To grow and and to stay in love with the Lord is a very important decision that each of us should make. We should decide everyday to walk in His ways and to be intimate to Him. Few months ago, the Lord gave me a picture of what is marriage. On a wedding day, a couple commit themselves to love each other in sickness and in health, in richness and in poverty, and that only death can separate them... The Lord taught me to be committed to Him just like a couple should be committed to each other. He taught me to love and serve Him no matter what my situation is. There were times that I felt like giving up on Him, but He was so patient and understanding to me. He never failed to strengthen me so that I could keep my commitment to Him. God is so loving and sweet that He is not just after of our commitment but He is so willing to help us in keeping that commitment. All that we need to do is to decide to commit ourself to Him. And this is never a one day event, it must be a daily commitment. Our relationship with Him becomes sweeter as we renew our commitment to Him on a daily basis. It will be sweeter as the years go by.

Now, I decide to run after Him. To become more in love with Him. To do what He says...

goodbye marco!

Last July I had my interview with one of the canadian agency at marco polo. For some reasons, I was denied at that time. However, it did not break my heart. I learned to trust God, I learned to yield on His will rather than pushing what I want. God spoke to me, and it was very clear that it is not yet time to leave and I made a commitment not to process my papers abroad in the remaining months of this year. After that commitment, there were so many "oppurtunities" abroad knocking on my door but by the grace of God I was able to say no.

Just this week, the agency who denied me few months ago invited me to go to marco polo for an orientation for nurses to canada. It was somehow tempting, but the joy of the Lord was my strength and I was able to say no... I did not go there. Rather, I spent my time with my spiritual daughter who just came from the encounter, and as well as with terej whom I haven't seen the past days....

There is joy in obeying the Lord.

treasure

Today is the 18th day of October 2009, consequently I read the chapter 18 of the book of Proverbs during my devotional. One of the favorite verse of many Christians in this chapter is verse 22 which states that "he who finds a wife, finds a treasure and receives favor from the Lord". I've heard and I've read it for so many times already, but it was different when I meditated on it a while ago. I was a able to understand well what my ate rejoice was telling me in one of her comments that my husband should be the one to seek for me and there may be times that it is best to hide...

When I was pondering on this verse, God made me realized that I am a treasure, that women are treasures... A treasure is something that is precious. It is something that should be sought for and when found, it is carefully handled. It is very important that every woman should truly understand that she is a treasure so that she would know how to take care of herself. She will live her life like a princess, and won't do things that are not lawful in the kingdom of His father who is the King. She will neither allow herself to fall in love to someone else other than the prince prepared for her by the King.

WOW, I love it!!! I'm a treasure and I'm hidden in the Father's heart. Only those who seek His heart can truly find me...

Alive, awake and enthusiastic

Finally, I'm off again after having a hard time during my 2 consecutive nyt duties. I really had a hard time since I was not at my best having colds and headache...huhu... There was this anti allergic drug that was given to me by my workmate few months ago. When she gave it to me, I did not take it because it can cause drowsiness and deep sleep... But this morning, I could no longer bear with my rhinitis and inflamed sinuses so I took that small tablet... honestly, I had fear that I might not be able to wake up after taking it so I told my brother to wake me up at a certain time.

thank God, I was able to wake up. I'm now alive, awake and entusiastic... I had dinner with Jane and we ate durian... I went to BCC to meet terej and to pay for the Jane's encounter. Terej was not there, I learned from aj that terej and anne were having a date. But as always, going there was not in vain... I saw a lot of people and I was able to speak to some of them. Ate merlyn was there and she invited us to go with her to a funeral service. So we went to Angel funeral home together with some other people. Ombing was the one who shared the word and He encouraged us to always treat each day as if it is our last day to live...

Live.... We can really be alive but not living, and we may be living but not for Him... Live for Him...

colds and headache

I had my duty last night and I will be going on duty again tonight... This is not an ordinary day for me because I'm not feeling well. I feel bad with my colds and headache... My sinuses are inflamed. I know I need to sleep and rest well to easily get over from this sickness but i just cannot do it right now. We had our departmental meeting with our head nurse a while ago that's why I didn't have enough sleep after my duty. Hopefully by tomorrow I could already have enough time to rest...

I feel so sorry that I cannot make it to youthreload cafe tonight... I just need to stay and rest for a short while before I go on duty tonight... Huhu, I'l be missing a lot since terej will be the one to share the word tonight...

I need to get well soon... Tomorrow will be another oppurtunity to do more...

a blessed day

I'm so blessed today for being at BCC this morning. I missed attending sunday service in BCC. I was at matina the past sunday. The word of God which was shared by Ptr Ruffy was so powerful. I have to rise up and remove stumbling blocks in my life. Conceal nothing, defend nothing, excuse nothing... I'm very glad that Jane was with me during the service, just this morning she became victorious by deciding to really go to the encounter... wohoo... Lord, all glory and honor to You. I learned that i just have to keep holding on to my faith for her life... all the more I will love her as my daughter and disciple.

Another thing tthat made my day so complete was our close cell with terej. I miss our close cell so much!!!! grabe... lahi ra jud ang close cell with terej and with my sisters... I will be one of the bride's maids on nov 7... ganahan kaayo ko ky terej ky supportive kaayo sya sa akong sabathical year. dili pa ko pwede mgbride this year. thanx terej.

In the arms of His embrace

After my duty this morning I went home to prepare for the reload live wire... I invited 3 girls but they did not reply to my sms... Hopefully, next reload they will be there already...

I was a bit anxious while I was on my way to reload, I felt so tired and I wanted to be alone. When I got there, I went to my favorite place at the 2nd floor. I sat there and prayed. I asked God to embrace me. I just want to rest in His arms, to be secured in His presence. The reload started, I sung and danced freely like a child for my Father and my King. I decided to live in His embrace no matter what.

Just after the eagurlz huddle, I talked with one of my girls and my spiritual niece and I learned that there's a problem with my girl... It was not easy, yet through it, God taught me to be bold... I learned that His word is the answer to our problems. We must face obstacles according to His word... I need to pray more....

Amidst all these, I will be still in the arms of His embrace.

STILL

who would have thought that I'm now on the 1oth month of my sabathical year... Me? Sabathical year? Was there a need for someone like me who has been a "no boyfriend since birth" to take a rest in the area of emotions??? Why Not!!!

Yes, it is true that I'm a member of the NBSB group (no boyfriend since birth), yet this was not an excuse for me not to have a sabathical year. To take a rest in the area of my emotions was very necessary for me because despite of the fact that I'm NBSB, I had been hurt and wounded too by some "frogs" and unknowingly I might have also caused some rejection and pain to some men in the past. Most imporantly, I need to go through this rest in order for me to focus well to the Lord. I need to set my heart and my mind solely to Him.

Going through this rest has not been easy yet it was very rewarding... God just worked amazingly and wonderfully in my life. While I'm at rest, God formed my characer as a daughter to my parents, a sister to my brother and to my spiritual sisters, a disciple to my leaders, a leader to my disciples, a friend to the people around me, a future wife to my husband to be, and a future mother to our children.

Being at rest has not been an excused for me not to encounter storms in the area of emotion. My heart was like an ocean, it was very peaceful yet waves cannot be avoided when strong winds come... This ocean inside me met storms several times these year and there were huge waves to a point that I might have a hard time overcoming them. But SOMEONE owns that ocean and that Owner have always been faithful that He takes control over it. He won't allow that ocean inside me to be desructed by the storms, and might ruin my life...

This year is not yet over, yet I will be still knowing that He is God, my owner and my lover.

my joy and my strength

I woke up this morning feeling so weak not just physically but also spiritually... for the reason that I haven't had a quality time with the Lord the past 2days... As leader, I have to encourage my girls but how could I do it if I don't have the courage to give them because I myself have been weakened... I was so sad realizing all these...

I read my bible and I received a command from the Lord TO GO AND MAkE DISCIPLES... I've already heard this commandment so many times before , but it was different this morning, He personally spoke to me about it. He told me that the key to make disciples is to follow JESUS... To obey Him..

During my prayer time, He reminded me of His word for me weeks ago, that He do things according to my FAITH... I decided not to linger on being weak. Yes, I've been weakened but no longer this time. It's time to go and make disciples... After reading His word and speaking to Him and at the same time hearing from Him, I've been strengthened. The Lord is really my joy and my strength... I'm weakened when I'm not spending quality time with Him, and that is my devo....

I went to a carinderia near Holycross and I met 3 girls and i shared the law to them, and they accepted Jesus as their personal Lord and Savior. I invited them to youth reload. I really hope and pray to have an open cell with them...

I want more....

goodbye yellow shirt

Today is the 20th birthday of my eldest spiritual daughter joy matabalan... I haven't greeted her yet because we're going to surprise her in a little while. I went to the mall to buy a present for her, but I was not sure of what to give her... I thought of giving her a comforter or a bath towel... I just want to buy something that would be useful to her... Then, the idea of giving her a shirt came in my mind... So I headed to the ladies department, I saw alot of beautiful shirts but not for joy because they were big for her... I found a yellow shirt and I really like it. I sought for smaller shirts that would probably fit for joy and I found some but I didn't like them and I decided to find other gift... I went to the fitting room to see if the yellow shirt would be good for me. I was excited! but huhu, I was saddened because it was too tight since I gained 2.5 kilograms after my vacation leave!!! And because of that, I had a revelation not to buy shirts while I'm on my 40days fast... Goodbye yellow shirt!

Thank GOd, I finally bought a gift for joy, a perfume... I'm excited to see her... wee!!! I believe that joy is a great woman of God, I just have to continue to pray for her and love her... She will multiply!!!

perfect

I had my duty this morning at 7am to 3pm. It was a busy shift for us. It was like I was doing two things at a time, like i was writing on the nurse's notes while talking to the medtech over the phone. While I'm doing something, I'm thingking of the next stuff to be done... huhu. It was hard. I was stressed out because I want to do everything, I want to be perfect as much as possible. However, there were some things that I missed out. Though I did my best, I was not happy at the end of my shift... I went home feeling bad...

Alone in my room, I talked to God and told Him how I felt... Tears flowed from my eyes when He told me that it was all because of my intense desire to be perfect. Did I want to be perfect for Him or because I want to please people??? He told me that in the very first place He never asked me to be perfect, He just wanted me to do my best and trust Him. He wants me to act in freedom as His precious child...

Thank you Lord for speaking to me... I want more...

day 3

tonight would be the first reload live wire... I'm excited.
I'll be spending the rest of my time this afternoon inviting friends to reload with me tonight.

I'm supposed to volunteer at sagip kapamilya pero dinatuloy kasi madami na volunteers...

40 days=100

Could 40 be equals to 100???
why not? In the Lord's arithmetic, 40 days of fervent prayer and fasting could be equals to 100 cells...
Wohoo... I'm on my way there....

24 at 24th 09-09

After two years and two months of learning and toiling in my workplace, I was finally given the chance to file my vacation leave for 15days starting september 15-30. I was excited, I even listed the things that I must do during my leave. What's more exciting about it was I will be celebrating my birthday with my family at our home.

I spent the first 3days of my leave here in davao to win souls, spend time with my spiritual daughters and spiritual family. Finally, the day came when I had to go home to be a child to my papa and mama. For two years, I made our house like a hotel. I went home only when I have enough time and stay there at most two nights and 3 days... Pa and ma were waiting for the oppurtunity for me to be with them again in longer days like I had before. When I got home, I was welcomed dearly by my parents, aunties, uncles and lolos. They prepared my favorite dishes and friuts... I just love to be a daughter, a grandaughter and a niece.

However, amidst all these blessing, I wasn't that joyful in my first few days there because all the while I was physically at home but my mind was left here...huhu... there were times when i was thingking of my birthday and I thought it will just be an ordinary day for me because I don't have the eagulz family and other close friends to give me surprises on that one special day in my life... I prayed and told God that I want to be happy. I told Him that on my birthday, he will be the one to surprise me....

Twenty-forth day of September came, and I turned 24 years old. I'm on my Sabathical year and it may be the last year of being inoscent of my honey's name...haha... Just before I started my devo early that day, mama came into my room, she gtreeted me and kissed me... I just missed her so much... I spent the entire morning watching over our carinderia and reading the text greetings I received from a lot of people while my parents and other few family friends were busy preparing for our dinner celebration... I didn't received a birthday card from a special someone like I used to have on my birthday and I didn't have any surprise from my friends (because I'm hours away from them, I'm quite sure that they could have it
if only I was with them)... These stuffs usually made me excited on my birthday. But little did I expect that God prepared something for me... Someone came into our home and delivered two tubes of ice cream, we did not made any order for it and I was surprised to learn that my uncle is the one behind it... I did not expect it from Him to give me something because I didn't see him as a thoughtful and caring person... Another gift came from another uncle (just a family friend), it was also unexpected from him... Various gifts were also given by my aunties and lolo that day... Those gifts were not the reason that made my day worth remembering, rather it was the people who gave them to me and who celebrated with me...

I know God is great but He is greater than what we could think of Him... More surprises are coming from Him.... No mind has imagined what he prepared for us... There's more, so much more...

TAKE OFF

I'm very glad that I'm not just a girl, I'm an eagurl. I was made not just to fly but to soar high. The Lord started a great business in my life and I am sure that He will finish what He started in me. Every rewarding journey begins with a single mile. Something more rewarding is about to take off...

today

They say that a journey to a thousand miles begins with a single step. My journey to multiplication begins today... It begun by listening and submitting to my leader....
I'm excited. I know I will enjoy every step of the way... Not by might nor by power but by His Spirit.